Why Ani .. why ?

Published on 2 years, 7 months ago in Anu. 2 Comments

Star wars is one of my favourite series of movies. I have watched the whole series a number of times. Yesterday, I was once again watching the 3rd movie, and the duel between Anakin and Obi Wan always gets my emotions running high. I love both the guys, and its painful to see them locked in an intense light saber duel.

I still remember my feelings when I watched the movie first time. After the 2nd movie, I fell in love with Anakin. I could see myself in him. His arrogance and the confidence, his hatred towards all the beings who have wronged him, his desire to be the best, to rise above any other and his focus towards his goal. These are the qualities I admired in him, and I wanted to be that guy. I could see my role model in Anakin Skywalker.

And then to watch the same man being tempted by power to do wrong deeds just broke my heart. And it did more than just that. It made me question myself – I wanted to be the same guy, would I have reacted in the same way? Could I have transformed from a charming Anakin to the most dreaded Vader? And after introspection, the realisation baffled me.

I realised that all the heroes I idolised are like him. I rate Tom Marvolo Riddle highly, and look at what became of him. In Dumbledore’s words – Tom was a charming head boy, and when he returned a few years later as Lord Voldemorte no one could recognise him as the same guy.

Part of my life has been a constant struggle to prevent myself from turning into one of these. I still aspire to be a Anakin Skywalker, or a Tom Marvolo Riddle, but I shall never transform into their latter selves.

And this is why everytime I watch the movie I feel the same pain again and again. I cannot get over it. Why Anakin … why did it have to be only Anakin to turn bad? Why could it not have been anyone else?

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  • http://dsriharsha.blogspot.com/ harsha

    your questioning about whether you will turn evil like your heroes is flawed.. in both the cases..

    In the case of Star Wars, you knew Darth Vader before you knew Anakin. It is not the case that you started the journey with Anakin.. watch him progress and suddenly were shocked at what he was to become(at least not if you watched the movies in the order were made).. You watched the first 3 episodes fully knowing that it was the story of how Anakin became evil(Vader) so it is ironic that you aspired to be him and were taken aback at his transformation to evil, the journey of which was fully evident in the second movie.

    As for Riddle, you first knew him as Voldemort, the personification of Evil.. whatever we know about Riddle in the books, he always had an evil bent in his character. Right from when he wasn't even in Hogwarts and he tortured his friends at the orphanage to the time he was in Hogwarts and experimented with Dark Magic and built his Death Eaters team in Slytherin.. How can you say you aspire to be like Riddle but not turn to Voldemort? Riddle was always Voldemort, when was he not evil?

  • http://blog.singhanuvrat.com Anuvrat

    hmm … I saw the star wars in the order 1..6 and not 4-6,1-3 … so it came as a pretty big shock to learn, after the second movie, that Anakin becomes a sith … and in the words of the wand maker, Voldemorte did great things … and I do admire him :)